Sunday, September 27, 2015

Psychic or just plain psychotic

How to know if you're a psychic?
Or maybe just plain psychotic if you can't control yo shit tho...

Well.... i don't know about you, but i can only tell you about my 1st hand experience.


Once upon a time... and im no good with my english,,,still...

okay enuff...!

Here are some judgements that i got from family to friends to society...

1. Confusing use of words/full of metaphor.
- well yeah... i don't like talking too much in real life, i only talk if it's important, so i just make things sound as simple and significant as i can, and people are like, "what the fuck are ya talking about? i don't shitty understand your gibberish bulshits!" Philosophical and psychological.

2. All your 5 basic senses are highly developed, and you're sensitive as fuck.
- and it's killing, i have nightmare all the time when i still can't control myself. I feel like i can feel everyone's aura, i can even see colours comin out from their body and all the objects all around me, you see... there's no such thing as black and white aura only, there are 7 basic colours like the rainbow colours.

3. Highly ambitious and rebellious.
- Dreaming a lot, then tomorrow start dreaming another dream again, then change again tomorrow, and all those dreams are very vivid and imaginative, i think like i can archive many things at a time, i can't stand routines, i hate working with shallow minded people who have no dream to archive.

4. Disorganize and creativity.
- In my early journey...i had a rough time focusing one thing at a time, i love music and art, philosophy and psychology, when i learn something new i only learn something from a short period of time then everyone was like, "wow! you're good but damn you're stupid! you change your focus again, can't continue one thing"....well~ shut yo mouth!

5. Emotional and spiritual.
- Many people told me to learn how to repressed my emotions, and learn to be a stoic person, well to be honest i may look calm from the outside but from the inside, i feel like i wanna explode and kill people, i feel like im being chained and force to follow rules and orders from what most of the people actually are doing, all i see are 'dead people' or soulless people living in a physical body. well yeah...I live alone in a small beautiful house with the nature and animals and oww....spiritual beings! I feel so alive~~

6. Can predict the future.
-well yeah...most of the time until people tell me to shut the fuck up until it happens right in front of their eyes...DAMN!! that feels goooooddd~~~ wuahahaha

oke enuff....thanks for reading.

Peace be upon ya~

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

ADHD & Bipolar Disorder


And woooww yeahh maddafaka! It's been a friggin while i didn't update any new post in my weirdo blog, sy tau la sy penuh dgn carutan trololol dan typo sana sini... Well fuck it~


I've just  realized that i've been diagnosed with  some mental disorder somehow, well 'they' said that but as for me, i feel good like there's no such thing as mental disorder if you don't perceive it that way...

Adhd (attention deficit hyperactive  disorder), like what the hell? I know that i hate school, i keep drawing my books at every last page of my books, i have many imaginary friends, they are from the other world or reality, i felt like i can archive anything & everything in life without any restraining nor control from anybody even my family and friends.

BD 1 (bipolar disorder type 1), i don't care nor i don't know what the fuck is all this bipolar bulshit, the only thing i do care is i just don't like to follow the crowd nor do i intend to force myself to blend in with others in a long period of time bcuz all i hear keep comin out from their mouth is complaining about life and their job, judging me for being insane, mad, nonesense about reality, i dislike the idea about faith in every man-made popular and powerful religions since it's being govern by the government, arguing with ignorant people that think they understand the symbolic meaning in their holy books, they think they trust in God but what the hell??? You didn't even met one face to face and you're just plain saying you know him/her or the angels watsoever?? I get so angry and disappointed by stupidity and ignorant, i even being called lucifer?? What the hell??  I see things that aren't there, hear em, and felt em...  you know what? They were my once imaginary friend that you guys mock when im still little, they were real, spirits are real! I just felt like im stuck in an ignorant reality, aarrgghh!! I should calm the fuck down....

Ow well.... This will be the best and awesome journey of my life! If you think you have mental disorder, think again, you're not, you're just fooling yourself.

Accept everything called life, it is precious.