i started to appreciate the things that happen around me, whether it is bad or good, both are precious when people start accepting the one and only God, but still

im trying so hard to control my mixed-up minded..........................lulz

From Idealism to Realism to Cynicism

When i was young, everything seems to be bright and warm, i really like the feeling, such beautiful imagination, well kids do good at imagine things. Those warm-hearted treatments i got when i was a kid made me thought that the world was such a wonderful place to ever live, hoping that it won't change, even the cartoon for kids taught me that.

As i'm growing up i faced betrayal, man's ignorance, hypocrisy, violence, and injustice. I started to think that all i've been taught and told to believe was all just a façade to hide the real and dark world, as if i was half asleep all this time, never try to understand the real thing that is happening in our world.

I started to realize some things, as a human i understand that we all have our own free will of what we wanna be and going to be, pride and ego play most of the parts, there will be no one that has no EGO, everyone wants to be recognized, hate being let down, and always wanna go up and up, and there you have it, selfishness is then created and all the other sins just because of man's pride. Such a wonderful cynical life.

Lastly, try to look at yourself in the mirror.

If You Wanna know The Real You, It Is The Internet You!

What the hell CARD GAME!

Actually it is called Illuminati Card Game.

Now look at this card game, looks kinda interesting ain't it?

Now this card game was created somewhere in the 90s or maybe late 80s and was published on 1995 by Steve Jackson. Several years later, some of the events in the card game has been fulfilled!

like THIS

this

and this! for example...

okii....that is like the most shocking shit for a card game to have predicted all these! Are all of this some kinda coincidence?

Well since most of humans in this world are very world-weary and pleasure chaser nowadays including myself, we don't seems to have this high sense of alertness and just plain believing what the hell is being shown in the media.

well~ people just want to live to the fullest right? But that won't take long....mmmmmmm

and tend to be blind of the truth and believing all the LIES that we have been fed.

Remember peeps, this card game was created 16 years ago, if the pictures above are still not convincing enough, then look at this-

The clock at the right is Wako clock tower at Ginza, Tokyo. This year, Japan just happened to have Earthquake + Tsunami + Nuclear Reactor(s) went MMMMM... = COMBINED DISASTER!

What nails the scary part is the clock's hand is pointed on 3 and 11 as shown in the card, which is exactly the DAY of the DISASTER!! which is-

11 March 2011

mmmm.....anotha coincidence? OR WHAT??

UPDATED:
Seems like there's another disaster is planned from this 'Combined Disaster' card, well just look closely at the colours of their clothes; the people that is shown in the card. It's the colour of the OLYMPIC GAMES symbol!

and where the hell does this event going to be held? It's in London, England, where also Big Ben is from.

The symbol of the 2012 Olympic game, the architecture and all are just not helping at all.

ow watever...

and now we got the Deepwater Horizon oil spill in 2010, the fifth most disastrous oil spill in the world at the moment and the latest oil spill.

lulz...is that Obama?

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and WHAT THE HELL with this CARD GAME!! There are more events that haven't yet to happen which can be much more gruesome if it really happen in the future (which is going to be).

things are just gonna get worse....

...........ow boi...

all this can not be a mere PREDICTION...but is more of a plan, that some people act and unfold.

Does this reminds you of anything?

We just have to look at what really happen, especially what is shown in the media, not that im trying to tell you to believe what is shown in the media,

but some people just can tell the meaning behind the media's words, symbol, numbers, arts and everything that they show, especially through entertainment like movies and high profile celebrity.

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The sign of weakness?

So yeah...we all make mistakes. Nobody is perfect as everyone would say. So why is apologizing so damn hard to do? Most of us like to be the recipient of a heartfelt apology, but giving is different than receiving, isn’t it?

I’m sure you’ve figured out, there are many reasons why saying “I’m sorry” is such a challenging thing to do. First of all, who likes to admit they’re wrong? or admit they’re wrong when they aren’t? It’s Not fun! IT'S ANNOYING!!

or maybe we're just too arrogant...

Sometimes it’s the fear of rejection that makes an apology so hard to say. The fact of getting a cold treatment, not being forgiven or losing a friend can be understandably be unsettling. Especially when it comes from someone you care about and want to maintain a relationship with, any relationship here i mean. Sometimes people feel that giving an apology is a sign of weakness, at times they even get annoyed with the word it self.

What do you think of EGO

It's a bad thing! uh oohh!

Actually it's not really a bad thing but it can get worse cuz it can affect our mind and overall life if not being proper control.

Most people would say,

"GOSH!!! he/she is so egoistic who only knows to brag!...budu punya orang"

that indictment is just too simple, and don't you think the way the person who got mad at the bragger is the same in some way as well?

"Everybody likes a compliment." -Abraham Lincoln-

No one is born EGOISTIC, nobody.

But then, the moment the mother or parents started to pamper and love the child, the little thing- i mean the baby feeling good with all those pampering and love...

THUS EGO IS BORN

Everyone love being nurture and wanna feels good and secure, and that is what makes most people's goal in life the so-called 'The Pursue of Happiness'.

"If you want to test a man's character, give him power." -Abraham Lincoln-

As we grow in life, we're being matured by the ongoing stimulus that we receive everyday and we all still want to feel good in any way by achieving success, get more money, power, leadership, physical beauty and superiority, glamor...etc and without us realize, it raise our EGO.

"Humans will never feel satisfy, they will always want more just for the sake of their pleasure."

From that on, it then becomes part of our life.

and you think it's not difficult to control it? You think you're not part of those egoistic society? Then answer these questions;

Do you love being criticized?

and will you ever accept critic?

or perhaps you're the one who criticize other?

...

Like i said, everyone is EGO, but EGO is not always portray as a bad image in person's life. It can help boosting one's moral and confident. It can also acted as a defense mechanism to ensure survival.

But once a person get too much praise, too much success, there's lie a feeling of insecurity. They will started to think,

"Can i achieve that? can i achieve this? what if i fail? what if i can't"

An arrogant people will hide all these feeling by not bothering it, being uncaring and selfish.

If i can't have it! No one can!

Egoistic people hate being put beneath other people, but instead they like putting other beneath them. They do realize it, and don't give a shit about it anyway.

Arrogant people are loner

Love yourself makes you a loner, imagine that all ur friends are self-loving bunch.

These are the common traits of an EGOISTIC people;

-inflexibility
-rigidity
-uncompromising
-not bothered
-uncaring
-ignoring attitude
-selfish

As we go on in life, these become important characteristics of our personality dynamics. Slowly life becomes hell when ever there is a U turn. Most turn mental wrecks because they would not lower their ego levels and thus become loners.

Egoistic have great difficulty in maintaining and developing relationships (because of those traits above),

team working, extending and receiving cooperation. They always feel they are right. Their ego does not allow them to accept mistakes or tender apologies.

Being arrogant is not always gonna make you cool, but do we realize that?

"yea~ so what?"

Loving yourself is good but thinking that you are the best is...errgghh...

there is a very thin line between 'pride and ego.' The former helps and motivates the latter leads to downfall and ultimate destruction.

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that's why i tried so hard to learn to be humble.

There are some ways to control our EGO which will be up on the next post. ^^

Avatar: The Legend of Korra

is COMING soon! It's gonna be on air this year in Nickelodeon (maybe)

After The Last Airbender movie tearing me down last year, im about to up to this world once more! For anotha Avatar series coming soon this year in Nickelodeon!



Avatar The Last Airbender has been my very favorite animation show ever since it's on air in Nickelodeon at the year of 2005 until it lasted on 2008. Then it got its movie adaptation which has disappointed many fans.

Avatar The Last Airbender is actually suppose to be for children, well it's Nickelodeon duh! But due to some dark theme and questionable morality in later episode, it has succeeded in attracting many older watchers who are not target audience including me at that time.

I was amazed by its high quality animation, sometimes i think it is much better than any anime out there (not all though), the fighting movement is just SUPERB! FULL OF EPIC WIN! and quite realistic in fantasy. My Top 3 favorite character is of course Aang, Toph and Zuko.

The movie adaptation is just...errr..i don't wanna talk about it, let just say it's just another fan's movie adaptation, sometimes there's nothing wrong at being epic fail once in a while right?

Then anotha new avatar project coming up, Avatar The Legend Of Korra.


Credit to OrlandoBloomFn from deviantART

It's anotha spin-off series! Well ya know, after the Avatar dies his spirit goes into another being;

From Water element bender -> Earth Element Bender -> Fire Bender -> Air element bender.

Picture of Katara, Toph, Zuko, Aang

You got Aang as the Air Bender Avatar in Avatar The Last Airbender series, so of course it's gonna be Water Bender next after Aang.

Then we got Korra as the Water Bender Avatar in the new Avatar series. The synopsis is:

The Legend of Korra takes place 70 years after the events of Avatar: The Last Airbender and follows the adventures of the Avatar after Aang – a passionate, rebellious, and fearless teenage girl from the Southern Water Tribe named Korra. With three of the four elements under her belt (Earth, Water, and Fire), Korra seeks to master the final element, Air. Her quest leads her to the epicenter of the modern "Avatar" world, Republic City – a metropolis that is fueled by steampunk technology. It is a virtual melting pot where benders and non-benders from all nations live and thrive. However, Korra discovers that Republic City is plagued by crime as well as a growing anti-bending revolution that threatens to rip it apart. Under the tutelage of Aang's son, Tenzin, Korra begins her airbending training while dealing with the dangers at large.

I miss Avatar so much! I miss the characters, i miss the cliffhanger at the end of season 3, i miss the motherly Katara, the goofy Sokka, the bright Aang, the snarky Toph, the depressive prince Zuko, the bending thingy, the epic soundtrack~
mmmmm.....let just say everything.

Except the movie...everyone is just out of character, well except for Zuko.

Bunch of noob politicians

"The past is the past so what?"

So you say you're being indifferent to the history's mistakes?

Day after day I started to get bored with political world that is going on in this country with all those pro-government medias that love to manipulate people's mind and starting to get oppressive bit by bit without we realize it, it's obvious since the so called 1Malaysia ideology manifested.

Those who have been living with privilege in this country started being so oppressive and aggressive by using law that they have made years ago. Just face it! there's no original people with pure blood in certain kinds of race here in Malaysia, you want united country with united people, you have to treat everyone equally! What is with this "HIDUP *insert race here*" stuff hah? Humans are unlike trump card, they have emotion, isn't that obvious?

If not, then someday for sure, there will be a rebel that will change the flow of this country. Seriously.

I HATE following the flow or the trend all the goddam time if the flow is heading toward the collapse of the country's people.

Makin lama dia memerintah, makin angkuh dia jadi.

kinpanas

RACISM among us

Racism, racial stereotype, someone being racist to you and blablabla...

You see there's no country can get away from this issue, even you live in a peaceful country, it won't be a forever-perfect-peaceful-wonderful country for you. Always remember this and so harden your heart by any racist remarks.

Another thing is, what makes one become racist in the first place? Being too proud of its race? Arrogant? nationalism? or someone being racist to you and you want to hit them back real hard with some racist remark, so yeah of course those are some of the factors, but those are actually only some of the symptoms, so how to control these symptoms?

It is just one of the infamous chain-of-hatred stuff going on in human's life. Orang kata percobaan hidup.

Always remember that we are all RACIST. Denying it makes the problem worse because we stop questioning our own prejudice, and prejudice is something that creeps out when we least expect it.

If you're too sensitive over a racial issue, sorry to say because this type of people has not yet attained a mental maturity.

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Merdeka! Merdeka! MERDEKA!!

Bagi sy la kan, merdeka ni BELUM HABISHHH lagi.

I mean, 31st August is not really the real independent day, this independent date is only involving the Peninsular Malaysia(West Malaysia) not the whole Malaysia, 16th September is which both Peninsular and Borneo Malaysia merged where as we know it as the Federation of Malaysia.

What makes me sad is, most of the youngsters don't really care about this kinda stuff, it's like they just take it for granted, the old generations have tried so hard to make this country as an independent country, so please learn to be grateful lar.

What makes me sad even more is, i saw this one picture of this dude commented about one of the Malaysia's state in Borneo Malaysia, where i'm staying at and born at.

Oki...banyak dia tau

I mean dude c'mon lar~~ don't try to be westerner here, there's nothing wrong to stay at a place that is not so accommodate like where you used to stay at, what so good about being so MODERN and forget yourself? Our ancestors in the past can live in such hard environment but they didn't complain about it, at least it's not fully JUNGLE here right?

Even the Australians and other tourists know to love the wild nature.

Orang2 karas lol

Happy independent day everyone.

That Man

That's weird..how the hell 'he' pulls those 'things' out?

......

What? what is that thing he's pulling?

Oki the story is like this, there's a sick old man staying at our home right now, it's my mom's dad, kira datuk sebelah mama sy la.

Memang agak annoying juga la gaya dia ni, alar~ besalah orang tua kan? Memang kesian juga la sy tengok dia ni, he used to be a funny man back when i was still lil (around 5-10 yrs old). This old man has one disgusting hobby which makes me despise this guy so much after i knew about it and im the only person knew about it and it will be remained as a secret.

Well...it doesn't mean i have to hate him for the rest of my life, macam no life ja klu suka membenci ni tau. Seteruk mana pun dia dulu, dia tetap orang tua sy. Dia sedang sakit tua lagi skang ni, kenalah bagi layanan yang sebaik mungkin untuk buat dia terus dalam keadaan selesa dan pada masa yang sama juga ia buat sy dalam...MMMM

There's this one man that maybe a friend of my granddad, this guy is always come to our house and do something to my granddad's body. I thought he was a doctor until he did something which a doctor not suppose to do, i mean he was like playing-pulling-something out from my granddad's body, he didn't do anything at all than doing that.

Then i looked at him by making funny face, im curious about it so i asked him,

ME: mmmm...pa ko buat tu?

That man: Saya tarik dia punya sakit.

ME:....mmmm....apa rasa dia?

That man: rasa dia macam2-

Me: macam angin ka atau ada rasa keras2 skit?

That man: susahlah mau cakap, tapi tangan kiri sy ja boleh buat, tangan kanan sy tak boleh, tak sesensitif tangan kiri sy.

Me: mmmm....dari mana ko dapa-

Datuk sy: Ko tolong dulu isi tu botol air sy

*selepas mengisi botol air tu orang tua*

*Lalu 'Itu Orang' pun mengambil botol air tu dan pegang dgn kedua-dua tangan dia sambil whispering something*

*Kemudian bagi sama datuk sy*

Me: Ni kali apa pla ko bua-

Datuk: vera tolong dulu simpan tu piring2 sy...

Me: ah oki...

*After i done with that lil job, That Man has already gone home*

arrgghh!!! nda sempat tanya habishhhh!

Byronic Hero (love it or Hate it?)

Really?

MAD, BAD, and DANGEROUS TO KNOW

It is one of the sub-type of ANTIHERO and most people will hate to love it because of how annoying + intense they can be portrayed or hate to hate it because of how sympathetic and magnetic they are being portrayed. Just what is it anyway?

You will know that character is a BYRONIC HERO when you felt the whole atmosphere around that character is so dark and ice cold, the whole existence of that character makes ya Goosebumps, you might think that character is either insane or mentally ill, you would feel that character is so scary, confusing, and very mysterious. Most of his clothes are black in color or any dark version of clothes (not really). That character is so emotionally disturbed but stoic, OMG TOO GOTHIC! This character is so self-centered and self-justification too much, sometimes you would think that this character is oddly romantic, and you just don’t wanna make him upset or the already dark atmosphere will starting to get thicker…

"Yo talking about me?!"

The ‘Byronic’ description is typically reserved for male characters (again, not really)

Knight In Sour Armor -> Byronic Hero -> Villain

or perhaps it's like this =

Knight In Sour Armor + Villain = Byronic Hero

Byronic Hero is a dark counterpart of an Idealistic Hero or an ace.

The Byronic Hero will either be like these:

1. He is a character that struggle to find the TRUTH of some issues. If he already knows the truth, he will try to reveal the truth through cynical action. (the good? byronic)

2. He is a villain that happens to be a protagonist. Then later on it is revealed that he was not the real villain. WTF (the anti-villain)

3. He just plain sociopath mothafucka who don't give a shit and quite selfish, and all he care is to achieve his own personal objective. (the total evil byronic)

Well still the Byronic is not much of a villain but still their action is not so different than the bad guy in the story, the only thing that makes them still being sympathized by the audiences is because they had a pretty rough life and full of tragic flaws which make things so intense and make you go "AARGH! WTF!! =O" the whole time.

Byronic Hero is usually quite educated, he knows many stuffs. His intelligent, charismatic and cunning attitude is what make this man dangerous and unpredictable.

Most of the time he always do things by himself, a freaking loner with the status of an exiled or if not he is an outlaw with no love from anyone. Don't worry, there will be more people starting to love this guy as the story progress.

Max Payne from a neo-noir video game.

Byronic Hero is prone to melodrama. He will tend to be bound by his past, a dark and troubled past.

Woohoooo~ im so sad~

The Byronic sure have quite an abusive behavior (a jerk!) and of course they don't mean to (i wish) and will feel guilty (uh-huh?) about it but they are just too flawed to be a real HERO.

That 'hero' will often struggling with himself from within, he got quite a complex and conflicting emotion which affect most of his action and all the drama in the story.

Which path should ya choose? Quick make a goddam move!

and many other negative behaviors like; self-hatred/critical, cynical and jaded, self-destructive, brooding, obsessive, and poor integrity. While the darker one, he will tend to be sexual fetish and lustful.

Their weakness and strength are their EGO. People will likely to get confused either they're on tha good side or tha bad side. Most of the time, he's on nobody sides, well he can be in anybody sides, double triple agent perhaps? The Byronic always walk in between the good and evil sides if he want or had to, he's the most neutral character in the story.

He hates to be in a crowd or anything that has to do with social shits, privilege and the higher ups, and very rebellious. Well because he has been rejected by the society, or maybe he's the one who does so.

and don't expect him to be honorable, he will always got something up his sleeve that is just plain dirty. If the byronic hero is a martial artist, expect him to play dirty fight and he may not have any redeeming quality.

He’s smiling while telling those people that celebrating his birthday to get out.

'Byronic Hero' is originally from the man called Lord Byron.



Just because they look all dark and melancholy, they are not in any way an EMO! They’re very ambitious, determined, and independent person. More likely a Gothic character.

I'm dying to know what is under his mask when watching this movie!

In my opinion, Byronic hero is like the most controversial type of antihero and a very complex character.

Many serial killer, vampire, avenger, hackers, mercenary, detective, intelligent criminal, mafia, castaway and vagabond are likely to be a Byronic hero.

Simplify:
Byronic Hero is a mix of; tragic hero, knight in sour armor, vigilante, fallen hero, broken hero, romantic hero, charismatic, Gothicism, anti-hero and anti-villain.

He can be as a loser guy or just plain normal dude at first but then shitS happen which makes him becoming almost like a villain, and then after all that he seek for redemption and becoming a good guy, he's still struggling to become heroic though. Like Scar from Fullmetal Alchemist for example.

or perhaps the author loves experimenting the character so much.

“Make the lie big, make it simple, keep saying it, and eventually they will believe it. “

Don’t you think adolf hitler fits this trope? His arrogant is tha BOOM! He's cunning, charismatic, obsessive, troubled, ambitious- he tried so hard to unite the Europe nations from his own sense of justice, super confident, caring and loyal to his family and people, mysterious even after his death.

There’s one interesting novel-graphic’s character named Vincent Nightray.


He’s quiet, very intelligent and skillful, he uses his brain to manipulate others, charismatic and magnetic, has traumatic childhood past, he can work with the bad and good people without them knowing, secretive, prone to melodrama, and people just don’t know who the hell is this dude- he’s so mysterious is.

mmm...he's not the main character actually, but if he does, we got LELOUCH in tha house!


Fetish fuel much..?

His rival is no different…not quite

........

"Humans cannot reject temptation. When they are plunged into the depths of despair, likened to hell, they will hold on to anything that may help them escape from the situation they are in, even if it's merely a spider's thread. No matter what sort of humans they are."

oki that is one good looking DEVIL right there. Many fangirls are just so crazy about this guy even though he’s obviously evil, well he's only kill villain anyway...and some poor victims who get in tha way.

Better run for your life now...

Is there any hope for a Byronic Hero to turn into tha good side? YUP! The power of love should do it.



Well most of the times, love is the main reason why Byronic hero became evil and troubled in the first place.

Like this:
Romeo: “noooo Juliet why do you have to die??” *attempt suicide*
Juliet: *woke up from her fake death* “noooooo Romeo!!!” *kill herself*

What the fuc-...
oki! most of the time they're not like that.


Many modern antiheroes are likely to be a Byronic Hero.

I know right...

If a Byronic Hero has realized their bad or evil doing, they will become a Knight In Sour Armor. If not, just kill him! Or maybe he's the one who'll sacrifice himself (final redemption)

If the story that focus on a Byronic Hero as the main character, the story would have lil or no moral value at all, the morality value is more on super evil vs evil or evil vs less evil kind of morality.

In the end, the Byronic is considered as a hero by some people and also a villain by some people.

I gotta say that i love the byronic hero cuz they're the most interesting antihero ever.

Byronic hero will usually have his light counterpart rival; if Byronic hero is a ‘dark’ type character, his rival would likely to be a ‘bright/light’ type character with more hero attributes. His rival can be his bestfriend, a HERO, an ANTI-VILLAIN, sometimes can be an idiot hero, or a LOVER.




Example of Byronic Hero characters:

-Batman (a modern vampire?)
-Severus Snape from Harry Potter
-Prince Zuko from Avatar The Last Airbender
-that dude from Iron Man, what his name again? Tony?
-Prince of Persia (game version especially in warrior within)
-V from V for Vendetta
-Veer Singh from Veer
-Frank Castle from The Punisher
-James "Sawyer" Ford from Lost
-Guts from Berserk (he's totally FIT this than any other animemanga antihero character)
-Sasuke & Itachi Uchiha
-Light Yagami
-Satan from Paradise Lost (ow yes)
-Magneto from X-men
-Vegeta from DragonBall Z
-Anakin Skywalker from Star Wars
-The Phantom (Erik) frm The Phantom of Opera
-Ciel Phantomhive and Sebastian Michealis
-Lelouch Lamperouge
-Gregory House
-Dexter Morgan
-Tony Montana
-Koinzell from Ubel Blatt
-Vincent Nightray and Glen Baskervilles from Pandora Hearts
-Ryo Narushima from Shamo
-Wee Meng Chee a.k.a 'Namewee'
-Agent 47 from Hitman movie, he's more like a villain in the game.
-Sherlock Holmes 2009 movie
-The traits of Scorpio in astrology sign can be consider as this.



Just go HERE.

All animations are CARTOON

You think so?

I actually don't really mind about it, but since i hardly talking and sharing about my interest to someone that has the same interest about animemanga thingy like me like old times and ppl around seems so mean recently, so i just have to keep all those thoughts for myself...it's NOT FUN... =.="

I always think that, why most of those people out there who don't like this kinda stuff seem to think like this, "anime? you watch cartoon? so childish" "you read comic? you should start reading novel instead of a childish book"

Then this so-called 'ALL ANIMATIONS ARE CARTOON' stereotype is then created. Same goes to 'ALL COMICs ARE FOR KIDs' stereotype. owh boy...

It's not that i don't respect their opinion, but this is just gonna make those comic books and animemanga fans out there seem not being respected, their interest seems lame don't cha think?

Anime is a culture to itself, adored by fans all over the world. Unlike animation in other countries, Japanese anime prides itself on its character development and intricate story lines. In America, animation is usually pushed aside as “childish,” but in Japan animation is merely another form of filmmaking. As shown by the many violent (and often graphic) shows animation isn’t only for children.

I do read bunch of novels and other literature stuffs out there, fiction and non-fiction. You know what, it was all the same; about telling story, art, and entertainment.

To those people who like to talk shit about animemanga, answer these; have you tried to read or watch some of it by different genre before ya start judging the whole thing?

Why do you call it a childish stuff anyway? Logically, what's the best reasons ya can give?

Or maybe for you, it is just an annoying moving animated people that makes ya think it's worth hating? Hating, so that will makes ya seem so not childish? A mature person lar kan.

Or it's just you brainwashing yourself to makes ya think so simple and closed-minded.

Try to tell lil kid to read Death Note, a psychological thriller manga, or try to judge Now And Then Here and There animated series, a story about kid soldier killing other kids and women and bunch of others, hey~ it's an animation right, so it's still in for-kid-to-watch category right? Or just go pick up some mature manga and then tell the world it's for-kid stuff.

Oki enough!

Human's patience has its limit. Susah btul maw relax kalau org sekeliling ko macam......*SIGH*

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owh my! For the love of God!...

It's been a while now since the bulletin that has been broadcast in Malaysia is all about humanity and war that is happening in Gaza and shits in Israel.

You know what? I find some of the volunteers who have been interviewed by the reporter and some Malaysian journalist and freelancers commenter are really hypocrite! It makes me think like,

"What the fuck are you guys thinking?"

I don't think they went helping those poor Palestine people for the sake of love or humanity at all! They went there is only because THEY ARE ON THEIR SIDE!

For the love of God! Do you think I'm in anyone side? Think openly! I don't think all those Israel people are evil, that's too GENERAL.

Good or Evil? or 'BLACK and WHITE MORALITY'? I don't believe in that anymore, all I see what is happening are more like 'BLACK and GRAY MORALITY', way more opposite than 'GRAY and GRAY MORALITY'. People do something is not because they think it's evil or good, it's because it's for the sake of their own PRIDE! or in other word, SELF-SATISFACTION!

It's something what they believe in themselves. When the more people whom have the same thought as this kind of people, that is where all are accumulated into 1 and become a strong mind concept. Then topple down the minority whom have different thought or opinion.

Understand? if not, try to not put yourself on anyone side.

You know what? God knows, it's easy to be kind; the hard thing is to be just.

Kalo ko ahli BSMM, ko tau la maksud sy.

It will just be a piece of meaningless word.

(cont.) if you never try to understand it

heyooo~~

I just have a couple of words to put in this entry, it's simple~ where people usually tend to make a blind about it, or in other word; Absent-Minded and Single-Minded.

What is it?

You always keep a lot of thoughts inside your head and chained your feeling in your heart. One day you find it hard to keep it for yourself,

You want someone to hear you out, you need a good listener or someone to care for you

But you can't seem to find one.

Don't worry, keep hoping for that

Don't give up yet

Until now you can't seem to find that kinda person

Or there's nobody want to be that kind of person anymore? Since everyone is also like you. Wanting others to care for them too, or maybe you're just too SELFISH?

.........................

Well,

Why don't you make the first move?

When will we start being that kind of a person that everyone hoping for?

Why don't we learn how to be more considerate to others?

So there will be many hopes can be saved

Things will just get complicated if people put their ego as their first priority.

Quit thinking too much about your own self-satisfaction only.

Humans are a complex being, it's not something that you can judge easily.

I think I should stop thinking about mah past.

People tend to run away from the past, because they know they can't fix it. Even if they try to forget it, it will come back at them, because they didn't fix it yet, because every time people try to fix it with a broken heart or with a weak heart. At the end of it, they tend to ignore it and stop trying to fix it, and continue living in a full of doubt and regret in the present time, and maybe...in the future....

You know what, the past doesn't matter! what does matter is the present time and the future, don't ever forget the past but learn from IT though.

Secure the insecure

owh~~ I know that some of you scare of losing the feeling of love and secure, that just shows how human is, sometimes people don't care about what's going to happen to others as long as you feel comfortable and place in a secure boundary.

Some might think their friends are everything to them, or family is everything to them, or both. Since there is the place where they can feel being love or secure. Love can be very selfish and killing too ya know, when they feel in too much love, and there's one time their family don't give enough love like they use to get, they tend to whine about it, saying that they don't care about them, this is like most of the spoil brats out there will think, like me used to think too.

When some of their friends which only just acting friendly but not really real friend or maybe a best friend left them, owh my! the feeling of love from friends, has just went bye bye~

The selfish feeling will soon to take over its place, make the particular person who think he/she in a tragic situation feeling furious or/and lonely.

Most people will drop a couple of tears after being back-stabbed, left by friend/family, or whatsoever..it's okay to cry about it, but crying all the time is not a solution to fix the problem and like someone would care?

Like people would fucking CARE??!! well mostly were just pretending since maybe they dont understand how it feels like. Im sick of being sympathy, why dont you start empathy?..

People just havta face the truth that might hurt them and get over it later then and get up not giving up and give lots of reasons to give up until it kills you little by little until you feel dying from the inside (awwhh!! im so in insecure boundary right now!)

Stop casting a tragic character all the damn time just to get a dying love which already left you. Sometimes, things that hurt us makes us stronger and mature, don't expect anything to go smooth.

Sometimes truth can be painful reality. If yo feeling insecure, secure it back like the negative charge against positive charge.

ME? i would do anything to do that, i don't like feeling insecure, but still i need time to do that..we're a human after all.

It's a damn test!

Every time I login into my facebook account, i always see people whining and whimper and complaining and blablabla~ about lots of stuffs, and unfortunately me also included.

I do like to do that too, that's one of my method to express some of my shitty stuffs, but now..i started to try to STOP doing that. I think it is normal now like people look down on you, envy at you, judgmental on you, mad at you and bullshitting behind your back..etc

HEY! shits happen you know, that's how life is.

Even after you've wrote that stuff in ur status, those particular people will laugh at ya, mock at you, they luv it as long as they think you are LOW or not competent, as long as you haven't show what-so-good-about-you to them. They like to see you fall and give up. They don't know about you, cuz they don't wanna know about it.

When i think back again about all those words I've written down in my status in facebook and also in my damn friggin blog, it makes me think that..urrgghh..this is such an infantile..how infantile am I....

It didn't bring any good either, full of anger and hatred, i didn't get any good by doing that.

I think every time i do that, it's like I'm showing my weakness to them; I never learn how to grow up even though i'm already 18(cuz i hate it, less fun y'know =3 ).

Do you realize that almost 90% of those people who saw that kind of status are annoyed? Even some of them posting comment with nice words on that kind of status are just..well..pretending to be nice.

Just ignore those type of people, don't tend to follow our heart too much until we forgot how to use our brain. That's what people call it a test right?

I ignore it doesn't mean I run away,

I don't want to see things like looking at it without understanding it,

I have a life that is more important to succeed than taking care of bunch of noobs,

I want to be more open-minded about the situation I'm in,

I want to grow up even though I've always being let down.

Even you will see me acting all carefree, cheerful and playful person, but it doesn't mean that I don't have any serious side.

So why don't you start understand about your weakness instead of whine about it, if yo have the time to whine why don't you do something about it?

There are [insert random number(s) here] cases?

Yo peeps!! >.<

Well you know, everyone has their own secret right? ^^b

So here are my thoughts about this kinda stuffs >.>

You see, for someone who's keeping a secret, there are three cases.

1st, they DON'T want anyone to know what they're hiding =o

2nd, those who really wanna spit it out, but can't or maybe..not really prepare for the consequences.

and then 3rd, there are those who secretly want someone to ask about those..those hidden affairs.

So you might be thinking right now^^
Well these only from my own statement.
think about it ~.~b

PBSM di sekolah.

Asal ada sukan sekolah diadakan, pbsm p bertugas scara sukarela.

PBSM sering dianggap persatuan yang lemah lembut, lelaki yang mcm pondan ja ikut ni persatuan bagi pendapat orang yang who don't know a shit & dont respect this club.

Banyak orang suka pakai baju pbsm, yang non-pbsm pun suka pakai^^
jadi, kalau budak ITU buat msalah, pbsm lagi dipersalahkan. Telah pun diberitahu pasal perkara ni, but it's no use.

Time ahli pbsm mau tolong, ada 'budak' sorang ni kata, "nda mau! kami pun bleh buat!", skali dibiarkan kejap, pastu kena bising lagi, macam2 jenis bising dia jo >.>

Time sukan sekolah juga, pbsm sering dianggap sebahagian dr kuartermaster, plajar2 suka btul p minta makanan & air dari pbsm masa sukan sekolah.

Kalau ahli pbsm kata, "sori teda makanan & air sini".
Disalahfaham, trus kena maki lagi.

Kalau ada ahli baru pbsm yang buat silap masa merawat atau nda tau langsung macam mna mau merawat atau lambat brtindak balas, kena bising lagi, mcam2 bising kena buat trmasuk makian yg tidak patut.

Bagi ahli pbsm yang brpengalaman pula, kena buat mcam mereka ni ada 10 tangan mau tolong byk orang dlm masa yang sama. Kena anggap macam mesin ni.

Banyak orang lihat pbsm ni macam mesin yang hanya tau buat keja jah, teda perasaan, kalau mereka silap, kena buat mcam mesin juga la.

Mereka lupa yang ahli pbsm di sekolah ni hanya budak2 aja.

Ahli2 pbsm di sekolah yang bertugas scara sukarela tanpa mngharapkan apa2 penghargaan.