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Friday, August 27, 2010

Pada suatu hari di facebook chatbox

oki sebenarnya dah lama perkara ni terjadi, seminggu yang lalu lagi...

oki sbenarnya sy tak mau la campur tangan dengan hal2 politik ni tapi ada sorang budak dari Indonesia ni tiba2 chatting ngan sy, sy kenal kawan sorang ni pun dari group page kat facebook yg b'tajuk 'Malingsia', ya orang tu yg add sy bukan sy.

tapi nama group page tu telah pun ditukar selepas sy pergi buat 'sesuatu' habis habisan, secara positif la, tiba2 mulalah ada bebrapa orang dari group tu pergi add sy as friend.

What makes them so mad about Malaysia anyway? the more i learn about it the more i learn the bad side of Malaysian people, mau tau apakah dia?

Orang Malaysia ni kadang2 boleh lupa diri dan trlampau bangga diri sebab kononnya negara ni lebih berprestij tinggi berbanding Indonesia dan negara South East Asia yg lain.

Matawang Ringgit Malaysia lebih tinggi nilainya berbanding rupiah Indonesia, kes penderaan pembantu rumah yg berasal dari Indonesia, isu curi budaya Indonesia?...ETC.

smua ni punca why Indonesian hate Malaysia, dan kebanyakan orang Malaysia ni pun being indifferent about this issues, doesn't give a damn about it, mau tunggu orang naik amuk dulu la. adui...

Benda ni dah lama berlaku dan dipendam macam gitu sahaja, apa orang tak marah?

Oki itu sebagai introduction ja, cerita sebenarnya ialah, budak sorang ni yang berasal dr Bandung, Indonesia, chat ngan sy tentang...i don't really remember but i do remember he was so resentful of Malaysia arrested those Kementerian Kelautan dan Perikanan Indonesia (KKP) yang didakwa menceroboh perairan Malaysia.

Punya tu kawan panas gila sama sy, dia lepas sgala kata2 mmmm mmmm MMM! dia di chatbox facebook sy, wow! bikin takazut eh...

Memang agak sakit hati juga cuz i don't know how to calm this guy down, then i just said to him,

"you know, you should know how to get used to this kinda life. Be open-minded, life is not fair, everyone knows that. Smua tu terserah kepada ketua negara masing2, there's nothing i can't do even you throw all those anger onto me. I can't do anything cuz im just a normal citizen like you who wants to live my life, im sorry..."

oki am i sound cynical here?

lepas tu dia tak mau chat ngan sy lagi, merajuk mungkin dia...owh boi...

trus sy pergi wall dia dan brabis minta maaf macam orang budu...

Eventually he replied,

" I was not offended at all
apologize for what? you do not offends me
and fellow human beings do have to forgive each other
^ _ ^ "

oki bah kalo ko.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Ada lah yang makan lumpur ni!

Oki tadi petang jam 5pm gtu sy prgi supermarket mau cari cd kosong kunu tapi teda pla, budu. Jadi sudah brada disana tanpa beli apa2, jadi pergi la ke bazaar brdekataan, mau beli sayap manuk.. i mean sayap ayam panggang.

Jadi, slepas brpusing-pusing ntah brapa round tu sbb susah btul mau cari mkanan kegemaran sy slain ayam panggang di jalan yang dipenuhi dgn brmacam ragam manusia sampai sy pun pening2 pala slepas terhidu bau ketiak orang yang kuat gila, boleh gugur rambut idungku kalo hidu lama2.

skali lepas jumpa dah tempat jual makanan kegemaran sy, iaitu kebab, dan cepat2 order sbelum abis diragut oleh order orang lain. Pastu ada la ni sorang abang yang berjambang lebat menggeselkan lengannya ke tngan sy, i was like..dude what the hell, sy bukan sabun tangan ko!

lepas dah dapat benda yg sy inginkan, sy blah la dari sana. Masa i'm on my way back home, trserempak pla ngan sorang budak yang brcakap sendiri, punya main bikin takut ni orang masa dia trnampak sy tadi, basar bah tu mata membeliak sama sy! sy mau lari laju2 bah tadi tapi malas sebab tu jalan berlumpur slepas dibasahi hujan tadi. shit! bad luck people! bad luck!

Masa dia mula dah maju ke arah sy, sy dgn brlagak beraninya trsenyum sinis, "ada lah yg makan lumpur ni." kata dlm hati.

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Akhirnya sampai dgn selamat aman damai makmur sejahtera juga sy di rumah.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Adik angkat??

You gotta be kidding me!

oki, datuk sy sihat aman damai sejahtera dah slepas sy berusaha buat dia dalam keadaan 'happy', orang yang happy sembuh cepat tau (buat lagak kebudakan skejap). Skang dia dah balik rumah dia di kampung dah, malas dah dia tinggal disini lagi sebab susah dia mau buat kerja rutin harian dia; melepak di tempat kawannya dan tempat biasa dia pergi lepak selalu.

Tadi pagi ketika sy sedang mensterika pakaian dadi sy, my mom told me yang ada sorang budak yang lari dari rumah slepas b'konflik ngan ayahnya dan ingin tinggal...di rumah ni.

Dia baru berumur 16 tahun, dah lama dia brhenti sekolah atas banyak kes disiplin yg tlah dibuatnya, dan skang ni dia blajar di kolej ntah kolej apa tapi yang sy tau tu kolej swasta, and starting today dia akan tinggal di tempat ni juga.

"Jaga dia macam adik ko ah vera" my mom said.

"Perempuan ka lelaki?" i asked.

"Perempuan la" mom replied.

*Goosebumps kejap*

owh boy...

Monday, August 16, 2010

That Man

That's weird..how the hell 'he' pulls those 'things' out?

......

What? what is that thing he's pulling?

Oki the story is like this, there's a sick old man staying at our home right now, it's my mom's dad, kira datuk sebelah mama sy la.

Memang agak annoying juga la gaya dia ni, alar~ besalah orang tua kan? Memang kesian juga la sy tengok dia ni, he used to be a funny man back when i was still lil (around 5-10 yrs old). This old man has one disgusting hobby which makes me despise this guy so much after i knew about it and im the only person knew about it and it will be remained as a secret.

Well...it doesn't mean i have to hate him for the rest of my life, macam no life ja klu suka membenci ni tau. Seteruk mana pun dia dulu, dia tetap orang tua sy. Dia sedang sakit tua lagi skang ni, kenalah bagi layanan yang sebaik mungkin untuk buat dia terus dalam keadaan selesa dan pada masa yang sama juga ia buat sy dalam...MMMM

There's this one man that maybe a friend of my granddad, this guy is always come to our house and do something to my granddad's body. I thought he was a doctor until he did something which a doctor not suppose to do, i mean he was like playing-pulling-something out from my granddad's body, he didn't do anything at all than doing that.

Then i looked at him by making funny face, im curious about it so i asked him,

ME: mmmm...pa ko buat tu?

That man: Saya tarik dia punya sakit.

ME:....mmmm....apa rasa dia?

That man: rasa dia macam2-

Me: macam angin ka atau ada rasa keras2 skit?

That man: susahlah mau cakap, tapi tangan kiri sy ja boleh buat, tangan kanan sy tak boleh, tak sesensitif tangan kiri sy.

Me: mmmm....dari mana ko dapa-

Datuk sy: Ko tolong dulu isi tu botol air sy

*selepas mengisi botol air tu orang tua*

*Lalu 'Itu Orang' pun mengambil botol air tu dan pegang dgn kedua-dua tangan dia sambil whispering something*

*Kemudian bagi sama datuk sy*

Me: Ni kali apa pla ko bua-

Datuk: vera tolong dulu simpan tu piring2 sy...

Me: ah oki...

*After i done with that lil job, That Man has already gone home*

arrgghh!!! nda sempat tanya habishhhh!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

I don't need drugs to start hallucinating

aahh...syok pla sy lihat anak2 kucing ni bermain pastu melompat keatas paha sy dan *SHRRRRREEEETTTTTT*.......

oki that's hurt.

Smua ni anak kucing gumuk2, tapi mama dia, pnya main licak tu susu perut dia.

Stiap kali sy lihat bnda yg sekecil sekejap sedikit mcam gini ja, benda macam ni lah yang tolong redakan bad mood sy.

Recently, I start hallucinating many things; i see something painting on the wall and it's alive. Oki now i started talking weird stuff here, but had you guys ever experienced things like that? like hearing things, seeing numbers and weird symbols and painting when you're in a state of awake? It's not like im taking any drugs before. it just FUCKING happen!!

owh well, im in a very bad mood swing since that time, i think my head is about to explode with all those so many thoughts right now.

FUCK IT!! @$#%$%^&^*^%%$@#@#

Monday, August 2, 2010

Byronic Hero (love it or Hate it?)

Really?

MAD, BAD, and DANGEROUS TO KNOW

It is one of the sub-type of ANTIHERO and most people will hate to love it because of how annoying + intense they can be portrayed or hate to hate it because of how sympathetic and magnetic they are being portrayed. Just what is it anyway?

You will know that character is a BYRONIC HERO when you felt the whole atmosphere around that character is so dark and ice cold, the whole existence of that character makes ya Goosebumps, you might think that character is either insane or mentally ill, you would feel that character is so scary, confusing, and very mysterious. Most of his clothes are black in color or any dark version of clothes (not really). That character is so emotionally disturbed but stoic, OMG TOO GOTHIC! This character is so self-centered and self-justification too much, sometimes you would think that this character is oddly romantic, and you just don’t wanna make him upset or the already dark atmosphere will starting to get thicker…


"Yo talking about me?!"


The ‘Byronic’ description is typically reserved for male characters (again, not really)

Knight In Sour Armor -> Byronic Hero -> Villain

or perhaps it's like this =

Knight In Sour Armor + Villain = Byronic Hero

Byronic Hero is a dark counterpart of an Idealistic Hero or an ace.

The Byronic Hero will either be like these:

1. He is a character that struggle to find the TRUTH of some issues. If he already knows the truth, he will try to reveal the truth through cynical action. (the good? byronic)

2. He is a villain that happens to be a protagonist. Then later on it is revealed that he was not the real villain. WTF (the anti-villain)

3. He just plain sociopath mothafucka who don't give a shit and quite selfish, and all he care is to achieve his own personal objective. (the total evil byronic)

Well still the Byronic is not much of a villain but still their action is not so different than the bad guy in the story, the only thing that makes them still being sympathized by the audiences is because they had a pretty rough life and full of tragic flaws which make things so intense and make you go "AARGH! WTF!! =O" the whole time.

Byronic Hero is usually quite educated, he knows many stuffs. His intelligent, charismatic and cunning attitude is what make this man dangerous and unpredictable.

Most of the time he always do things by himself, a freaking loner with the status of an exiled or if not he is an outlaw with no love from anyone. Don't worry, there will be more people starting to love this guy as the story progress.



Max Payne from a neo-noir video game.


Byronic Hero is prone to melodrama. He will tend to be bound by his past, a dark and troubled past.



Woohoooo~ im so sad~


The Byronic sure have quite an abusive behavior (a jerk!) and of course they don't mean to (i wish) and will feel guilty (uh-huh?) about it but they are just too flawed to be a real HERO.

That 'hero' will often struggling with himself from within, he got quite a complex and conflicting emotion which affect most of his action and all the drama in the story.

Which path should ya choose? Quick make a goddam move!


and many other negative behaviors like; self-hatred/critical, cynical and jaded, self-destructive, brooding, obsessive, and poor integrity. While the darker one, he will tend to be sexual fetish and lustful.

Their weakness and strength are their EGO. People will likely to get confused either they're on tha good side or tha bad side. Most of the time, he's on nobody sides, well he can be in anybody sides, double triple agent perhaps? The Byronic always walk in between the good and evil sides if he want or had to, he's the most neutral character in the story.

He hates to be in a crowd or anything that has to do with social shits, privilege and the higher ups, and very rebellious. Well because he has been rejected by the society, or maybe he's the one who does so.

and don't expect him to be honorable, he will always got something up his sleeve that is just plain dirty. If the byronic hero is a martial artist, expect him to play dirty fight and he may not have any redeeming quality.



He’s smiling while telling those people that celebrating his birthday to get out.


'Byronic Hero' is originally from the man called Lord Byron.



Just because they look all dark and melancholy, they are not in any way an EMO! They’re very ambitious, determined, and independent person. More likely a Gothic character.



I'm dying to know what is under his mask when watching this movie!


In my opinion, Byronic hero is like the most controversial type of antihero and a very complex character.

Many serial killer, vampire, avenger, hackers, mercenary, detective, intelligent criminal, mafia, castaway and vagabond are likely to be a Byronic hero.

Simplify:
Byronic Hero is a mix of; tragic hero, knight in sour armor, vigilante, fallen hero, broken hero, romantic hero, charismatic, Gothicism, anti-hero and anti-villain.

He can be as a loser guy or just plain normal dude at first but then shitS happen which makes him becoming almost like a villain, and then after all that he seek for redemption and becoming a good guy, he's still struggling to become heroic though. Like Scar from Fullmetal Alchemist for example.

or perhaps the author loves experimenting the character so much.



“Make the lie big, make it simple, keep saying it, and eventually they will believe it. “


Don’t you think adolf hitler fits this trope? His arrogant is tha BOOM! He's cunning, charismatic, obsessive, troubled, ambitious- he tried so hard to unite the Europe nations from his own sense of justice, super confident, caring and loyal to his family and people, mysterious even after his death.

There’s one interesting novel-graphic’s character named Vincent Nightray.


He’s quiet, very intelligent and skillful, he uses his brain to manipulate others, charismatic and magnetic, has traumatic childhood past, he can work with the bad and good people without them knowing, secretive, prone to melodrama, and people just don’t know who the hell is this dude- he’s so mysterious is.

mmm...he's not the main character actually, but if he does, we got LELOUCH in tha house!


Fetish fuel much..?








His rival is no different…not quite


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"Humans cannot reject temptation. When they are plunged into the depths of despair, likened to hell, they will hold on to anything that may help them escape from the situation they are in, even if it's merely a spider's thread. No matter what sort of humans they are."


oki that is one good looking DEVIL right there. Many fangirls are just so crazy about this guy even though he’s obviously evil, well he's only kill villain anyway...and some poor victims who get in tha way.


Better run for your life now...


Is there any hope for a Byronic Hero to turn into tha good side? YUP! The power of love should do it.



Well most of the times, love is the main reason why Byronic hero became evil and troubled in the first place.

Like this:
Romeo: “noooo Juliet why do you have to die??” *attempt suicide*
Juliet: *woke up from her fake death* “noooooo Romeo!!!” *kill herself*

What the fuc-...
oki! most of the time they're not like that.


Many modern antiheroes are likely to be a Byronic Hero.



I know right...


If a Byronic Hero has realized their bad or evil doing, they will become a Knight In Sour Armor. If not, just kill him! Or maybe he's the one who'll sacrifice himself (final redemption)

If the story that focus on a Byronic Hero as the main character, the story would have lil or no moral value at all, the morality value is more on super evil vs evil or evil vs less evil kind of morality.

In the end, the Byronic is considered as a hero by some people and also a villain by some people.

I gotta say that i love the byronic hero cuz they're the most interesting antihero ever.

Byronic hero will usually have his light counterpart rival; if Byronic hero is a ‘dark’ type character, his rival would likely to be a ‘bright/light’ type character with more hero attributes. His rival can be his bestfriend, a HERO, an ANTI-VILLAIN, sometimes can be an idiot hero, or a LOVER.




Example of Byronic Hero characters:

-Batman (a modern vampire?)
-Severus Snape from Harry Potter
-Prince Zuko from Avatar The Last Airbender
-that dude from Iron Man, what his name again? Tony?
-Prince of Persia (game version especially in warrior within)
-V from V for Vendetta
-Veer Singh from Veer
-Frank Castle from The Punisher
-James "Sawyer" Ford from Lost
-Guts from Berserk (he's totally FIT this than any other animemanga antihero character)
-Sasuke & Itachi Uchiha
-Light Yagami
-Satan from Paradise Lost (ow yes)
-Magneto from X-men
-Vegeta from DragonBall Z
-Anakin Skywalker from Star Wars
-The Phantom (Erik) frm The Phantom of Opera
-Ciel Phantomhive and Sebastian Michealis
-Lelouch Lamperouge
-Gregory House
-Dexter Morgan
-Tony Montana
-Koinzell from Ubel Blatt
-Vincent Nightray and Glen Baskervilles from Pandora Hearts
-Ryo Narushima from Shamo
-Wee Meng Chee a.k.a 'Namewee'
-Agent 47 from Hitman movie, he's more like a villain in the game.
-Sherlock Holmes 2009 movie
-The traits of Scorpio in astrology sign can be consider as this.



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